Tuesday, December 22, 2009
12:34 PM
So now you know my big secret.
I'm Sorry for not telling you
It's really not something i am proud of at all
Finally my past has caught up with me
i do not know what to do anymore
can you accept me for who i am?
can you see past my past
and see true meaning in what is gonna come?
i prayer that you can.
for my past has taught me a lesson.
a lesson at a very big expense
and it's a lesson i nvr forget
a lesson so simple yet deadly if never learnt
That nothing should revolve ard "IT"
IT has killed me
Ripped my soul into a million pieces
leaving me stranded by myself to slowly pull myself together again
limb by limb till i once again am whole
and doing so i have lost part of my limbs
but gained an additional limb emotionally
a strength not of the physical but of the emotional
a mental strength so strong
I now stand firm cause of that lesson
a lesson taught to me through a mistake
and i nvr would commit that mistake again
a deadly mistake that could never be repeated
a deadly mistake that eats your soul
a deadly mistake that i'll never repeat
for God saved me once
and i believe it will ever happen again he'll save me again
but that might be too late for i can't afford to ever fall again
for the next time my soul falls i do not know
how deep the pit will be.
it might just go into the abyss of time
and never resurface.
Life is to precious to fool anymore
i'm no longer like how i used to be
I wanna take my final chance with you.
will you let me have that chance?
If i could break every clock and stop time here
with you i will.
I'm sorry for putting you in such a spot.
I should've said this right from the start
but i still love you the same.
i hope you can accept me.
God I'm sorry for ever disregarding what you gave to me
I pray God that you'll give me the strenght and courage and discipline to face
any future problems. Thank you God.... ILU
written, poetic_tragedy
Friday, March 06, 2009
9:29 AM
Shit! i wanna get away frm here!
why must there be church?
God loves us yes i know
but then everything becomes.
God God God GOd GOd god god godngdo ggdQ.
YES. GOD!
sigh.
y can't we just have some of ourself time
come home family time
go out friend time
go church God time
come home Family time
plus lecture abt God.
WTF!
wah lan eh.
gimme a break leh.
Screwed up shit
Maybe i should just stay in camp everyday
say i can't come home.
sigh.
sick of this shit.
Save the world.
Save me First la.
nono
dun.
let me havock pls.
and dun ask Questions
shhhhhhhhh.... Dun ASK Why!
written, poetic_tragedySunday, January 11, 2009
burns.
7:12 AM
written, poetic_tragedyThursday, January 01, 2009
6:55 AM
I feel lost.
again and again
i feel the dust settling on my old wooden crate once again
my time capsule of forgotten past
my badges of past tales
now i lie in the pits of tale
where my crate once lay
as my past resurfaces
leaving me in the bitter dust of it's ascend
i'm now lying in the 6ft hole
waiting for the soils of life to overcome my life
i need to break free
i need to come above the situation
i need to walk alone for while
i'm lost amongst this life
save my soul
save my life
save me from the crazyness here
i hate things now.
screw this
screw the world
for there's things way better from this world
screw it.
argh...
written, poetic_tragedy
12:25 AM
It's the new year and i am here again
Where am i?
what am i to do?
this year has just began
but my life is still undone.
what am i to do next?
or please help me
help me figure what i have to do
i'm lost in this world
i'm seeking your greatness
but still again i'm being dragged down
by the turmoils of life
beyond hope beyong repair
i seek the aid of our heavenly mechanic
yet my physical state looks well to do
but what lies within is a rusting tin can
refurbish me. for if you do not
my body will soon once again crumple to the ground
refurbish me give me new interiors and set the bolts on tight
so tight not even the strongest person can undo it
pimp me out so that all may see that i'm your masterpiece
pimp me out so that i may live that live u gave
pimp me out cause i love you and you love me.
pimp me out so that your works may always be on me
and i may bear your name wherever i go.
Pimp me out.
PLEASE!!!!
I need you here set a new sight in me
a new place to relive ur words.
bring me to a new horizon where i may
once again see and do your will.
let me arise to ur ways
and set a new flame within my heart
that it may burn like a million candles
and set aflame all those i meet.
Amen
written, poetic_tragedyFriday, September 19, 2008
10:58 AM
IT's been sooo soo long since i blogged.
it's amazing how much u do not know abt urself.
and how a single conversation can set ablaze
smouldering ashes that u thought was going to die any moment soon.
well there are things i miss and things i wish i nvr did
things which i love and things i wish i had tried.
nothing can change this. but all i can do i hold on.
get a grip and strive.
thought stripped bone dry of things.
with a weary old heart strive on.
life is worth much more than this.
sigh. still trying to kid myself.
wat a joke..........
written, poetic_tragedyWednesday, May 14, 2008
The Love TEST....
9:44 AM
Here is the analysis:
1. When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.
2. You give 100% to your relationship and expect to receive 0% in return.
3. If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself.
4. You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible.
5. You accept your loved one the way they are. You don't expect him or her to change for you.
6. When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.
written, poetic_tragedyMonday, May 12, 2008
9:11 AM
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
written, poetic_tragedy